“Help! I’m in a\u00a0nutshell! How did I get into this\u00a0nutshell? Look at the size of this bloody great big\u00a0nutshell! What sort of shell has a nut like this?”<\/p>\n
—–<\/p>\n
Anyway. \u00a0We moved from smack down in the middle of Silicon Everything up into San Francisco, right off the ocean, right off the park. \u00a0We’re in the exact<\/em> same neighborhood, the exact same corner<\/em> of it that my husband remembered from 90s nostalgia, and isn’t that cool<\/em>? \u00a0The ocean is amazing, the park is restful, the neighborhood full of surfers and aimless drifters and busy busy bees.<\/p>\n I sold a poem this year, which is one of the proudest things I’ve done. \u00a0I sent out another one and never heard back, so it’s time to send out more<\/em> rather than stuff everything back under the proverbial bushel for another twenty years.<\/p>\n I left my retail job at Apple, which precipitated the worst attack of depression\/inertia\/crap that I’ve felt in the last few years. \u00a0It isn’t money, it’s occupation. \u00a0I don’t know, contributing, doing, getting out of the house. \u00a0When I’m home, everything preys on everything else until I’m like a turtle flipped over on its shell, unable to do anything but flail.<\/p>\n We went to London for our honeymoon, and even though I was so<\/em> sick the whole time, it was fantastic. \u00a0We went to Disneyland a couple of times and basked in excellent customer service and that odd sense of Americana belonging that comes with Disney and having the privilege to afford it and travel to it and all the rest. \u00a0We went to Austin and San Antonio too, and LoneStarCon, and BigBadCon here in Oakland. \u00a0We didn’t game nearly enough. \u00a0I was in a great Lexicon game. \u00a0I create and role-play stories with amazing friends.<\/p>\n I started poking at crafts – I’ve been obsessively folding paper and considering all sorts of adjacent paper-related things. \u00a0Orgami has proven to be really absorbing – it’s a match between geometry and handiwork, and somehow that’s really satisfying.<\/p>\n I didn’t read enough. \u00a0I loved a few movies, like Pacific Rim<\/em>. \u00a0 I read a ton of comics. \u00a0I am so happy I bought a Spotify subscription. \u00a0I whined about not upgrading my phone. \u00a0I became completely obsessed with nail polish. \u00a0I ate poorly, but walked more than the year before. \u00a0I have some sort of dental problem that needs attention. \u00a0I bought eyeglasses a few days ago, after not doing so since before my first husband died. \u00a0I bought them just before he passed, right? \u00a0And even though they’re scratched and nasty, I don’t know. \u00a0It’s a thing. \u00a0But new glasses are coming, and maybe I’ll see more clearly.<\/p>\n 2014 thoughts: \u00a0write more, walk more, be kinder to myself. \u00a0love more. \u00a0be less afraid.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" “Help! I’m in a\u00a0nutshell! How did I get into this\u00a0nutshell? Look at the size of this bloody great big\u00a0nutshell! What sort of shell has a nut like this?” —– Anyway. \u00a0We moved from smack down in the middle of Silicon Everything up into San Francisco, right off the ocean, right off the park. \u00a0We’re in […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[7],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/367"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=367"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/367\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":393,"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/367\/revisions\/393"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=367"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=367"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/natterings.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=367"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}